This is what a years worth of treatment looks like. More than 50 IV bags, countless pills, powders, and drips. Is it worth it? Yes. It most definitely is.
I remember a year ago when I would wake up in the middle of the night screaming from pain that felt like a knife in my head or my feet felt like they were on fire. It’s been many months since I’ve had that kind of pain. I haven’t been to the ER in at least 6 months. I used to have to hold onto walls and counters to get from one room to another so I wouldn’t fall over from dizziness. All these things are so much minimized and for that I am so grateful.
There are 2 things going on with treatment. 1) We are managing symptoms – addressing pain and fatigue and such. 2) We are killing bugs. Killing the bugs releases toxins which cause different symptoms – which leads back to #1.
It’s not over yet. I still have pain which flairs up when I try to be active (just going to the store will bring it on). The fatigue and lack of stamina are overwhelming – even writing this blog post is exhausting. And I am certain that if I stopped all treatment, I would quickly revert back to the horrible symptoms that used to be. But today, we move forward with less pain and more hope.
The key is the word “we”. I don’t know what I’d do without my supportive family – my husband who administers my IV treatment every day and ensures I eat and take my meds, my children who clean and cook and water the garden, and the love and companionship they each give me during a time that can feel lonely and scary. I am truly blessed beyond measure.
God is still God.
Good is still good.
To Him be the glory.