It’s ok to have a pity party, just don’t unpack and live there.

I truly believe in this motto 👆🏻. Positive thought is important to the healing process. So when I’m feeling down, I allow myself some time to wallow and then I shake off the negativity and focus on the many amazing things in my life.

However lately I feel like like I’m having more pity parties than normal. Life is overwhelming and I can’t seem to stay ahead of frustration, irritability, annoyance.

There is so much goodness surrounding me that I really have no right to complain. So I’m gonna start working towards changing my attitude and see if I can find a fresh outlook on life.

I’ve been scrolling back through some old posts I’ve written and reminding myself how far I’ve come. So long as I’m breathing, there is hope – I just have to be willing to look for it.

Positive Posts

9 Years of Hope

9 years ago today, I went to the ER with such severe back pain that I couldn’t walk, couldn’t sit, and the 2 rounds of IV pain meds they gave me barely took the edge off. Since that day – I’ve been disabled. I spent the next 9 months begging doctors for answers. I’ve been…

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What A Difference A Day Makes

Yesterday was an amazing day. We spent a lot of time in the Word and talking about life and what’s happening in our world. And then we drove to Barefoot Beach, which is in the middle of a nature preserve (watch out for turtles). I’m not saying I was so full of energy I could…

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Never Give Up on Your Dreams

I saw this post this morning and it sure hit home! Digging my way through sickness has been so hard at times that I’ve wanted to just stop fighting. But what does that mean? Do I just lay in bed and whither away? Would that be easier? No – I’d still be sick! I’d still…

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“You’re Not Going to Get Better by Letting It Beat You”

Josh Blue has cerebral palsy and is one of the funniest comedians I’ve ever seen. He was on AGT this year and during the finale, he shared that he is in phenomenal pain. You’re not going to get better by letting it beat you. Josh Blue Oh how I relate to this so much!!! There…

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Anything Mentionable is Manageable

I want to tell everyone what I know about Lyme and other tick diseases. There’s a very fine line between being transparent and being overwhelming. Human frailty – sickness, death, even emotions – can be hard to talk about. It requires vulnerability. It taken me 52 years to learn that being vulnerable isn’t a bad…

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“Accept Who You Are” ~Jersey Girl

It’s ridiculous that a quote in a somewhat off-color (and awkwardly romantic) movie can be the very thing I need to hear. Forget about who you thought you were and just accept who you are. Maya, Jersey Girl I talk a lot about who I used to be…how I used to live…what I used to…

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The Level of Exhaustion

Being sick is exhausting. You can’t understand that statement unless you’ve been there yourself. I am exhausted. I’m sick of being sick. The pain right now is so high I wake up crying – I can’t walk, I can’t turn over, I can’t breathe without cringing. “There comes a point when the desire to rest…

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The Measure of a Person

“Everyone fails at who they’re supposed to be…the measure of a person is how well they succeed at who they are.” Frigga to Thor I am sick. It isn’t who I am but it does affect what I can do…and that affects who I am. Right now I can’t stand up for 5 minutes. Literally…

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The Joy of Life

I hate being sick. Hate it. It’s impossibly hard most days. I cry. I get mad. I feel hopeless at times. It’s ok to have a pity party just don’t unpack and live there! But I choose how to live with this sickness. I choose love. I choose joy. Yes – it’s a choice. Every…

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You’re Beautiful…

God has been dropping bits of encouragement on my life today – it’s been more of an “in your face” kind of message that the fight is not over yet (FK&C). If you are feeling defeated right now, if your pain is too much to bear, if like me you are feeling fat and ugly…

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Never Surrender Your Own Judgement

I participate in several forums focused on specific health conditions. I initially joined them in the hopes of learning more about some of the conditions I have. What I’ve found is that most of the people participating are in the early stages of some sort of sickness – or at a minimum, they haven’t yet…

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20 Seconds of Insane Courage

“You know, sometimes all you need is twenty seconds of insane courage. Just literally twenty seconds of just embarrassing bravery. And I promise you, something great will come of it.” Benjamin Mee, We Bought a Zoo I’m stepping out in faith right now trusting that God will move mountains in my community. This wildfire is…

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I Hate Losing

“I hate losing even more than I like winning. And there’s a difference.” Billy Beane Moneyball There IS a difference! I’ve been seeing a naturopath who has slowly been getting me out of bed and able to do a little here and there. The last few days have been very noticeable. It’s exciting. It’s encouraging.…

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Thrive – Switchfoot

Let’s be honest – if you have a chronic sickness, this song is how you probably feel most of the time. There’s power in being able to admit “I’m not alright”. Click Here – Video: Thrive by Switchfoot Lyrics: Been fighting things that I can’t see it Like voices coming from the inside of me…

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A Life of Options

I remember times in my life when I looked at the wide open world and thought about the different options I had…career choices, where I’d live, where I’d vacation. Those options are still available but I realized this morning my life has become a series of options – options that sometimes aren’t really options. We…

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