Anything Mentionable is Manageable

I want to tell everyone what I know about Lyme and other tick diseases. There’s a very fine line between being transparent and being overwhelming. Human frailty - sickness, death, even emotions - can be hard to talk about. It requires vulnerability. It taken me 52 years to learn that being vulnerable isn’t a bad…

“Accept Who You Are” ~Jersey Girl

It’s ridiculous that a quote in a somewhat off-color (and awkwardly romantic) movie can be the very thing I need to hear. Forget about who you thought you were and just accept who you are.Maya, Jersey Girl I talk a lot about who I used to be...how I used to live...what I used to do.…

The Level of Exhaustion

Being sick is exhausting. You can’t understand that statement unless you’ve been there yourself. I am exhausted. I’m sick of being sick. The pain right now is so high I wake up crying - I can’t walk, I can’t turn over, I can’t breathe without cringing. “There comes a point when the desire to rest…

The Measure of a Person

“Everyone fails at who they’re supposed to be...the measure of a person is how well they succeed at who they are.” Frigga to Thor I am sick. It isn’t who I am but it does affect what I can do...and that affects who I am. Right now I can’t stand up for 5 minutes. Literally…

Never Surrender Your Own Judgement

I participate in several forums focused on specific health conditions. I initially joined them in the hopes of learning more about some of the conditions I have. What I’ve found is that most of the people participating are in the early stages of some sort of sickness - or at a minimum, they haven’t yet…

20 Seconds of Insane Courage

“You know, sometimes all you need is twenty seconds of insane courage. Just literally twenty seconds of just embarrassing bravery. And I promise you, something great will come of it.”Benjamin Mee, We Bought a Zoo I’m stepping out in faith right now trusting that God will move mountains in my community. This wildfire is spreading…

I Hate Losing

“I hate losing even more than I like winning. And there’s a difference.” Billy Beane Moneyball There IS a difference! I’ve been seeing a naturopath who has slowly been getting me out of bed and able to do a little here and there. The last few days have been very noticeable. It’s exciting. It’s encouraging.…

Every Loss is Another Fight

The Way Back with Ben Affleck is a movie about a guy finding his way back from hell - it's about loss, about alcoholism, and about life long, deep rooted anger. "We can't change the past; what we can do is choose how we move forward." This movie will tug at your heart strings and…

The Trail of a True Human Being

Nothing causes people to refocus priorities more than tragedy. Here we are, walking through life, juggling work and family and trying to find balance - when BAM! Out of nowhere something happens that triggers a drastic shift of thinking. I was 17 watching the Space Shuttle Challenger liftoff from my desk in high school and…