9 Years of Hope

9 years ago today, I went to the ER with such severe back pain that I couldn’t walk, couldn’t sit, and the 2 rounds of IV pain meds they gave me barely took the edge off. Since that day - I’ve been disabled. I spent the next 9 months begging doctors for answers. I’ve been…

What A Difference A Day Makes

Yesterday was an amazing day. We spent a lot of time in the Word and talking about life and what’s happening in our world. And then we drove to Barefoot Beach, which is in the middle of a nature preserve (watch out for turtles). I’m not saying I was so full of energy I could…

Never Give Up on Your Dreams

I saw this post this morning and it sure hit home! Digging my way through sickness has been so hard at times that I’ve wanted to just stop fighting. But what does that mean? Do I just lay in bed and whither away? Would that be easier? No - I’d still be sick! I’d still…

The Joy of Life

I hate being sick. Hate it. It’s impossibly hard most days. I cry. I get mad. I feel hopeless at times. It’s ok to have a pity party just don’t unpack and live there! But I choose how to live with this sickness. I choose love. I choose joy. Yes - it’s a choice. Every…

Never Surrender Your Own Judgement

I participate in several forums focused on specific health conditions. I initially joined them in the hopes of learning more about some of the conditions I have. What I’ve found is that most of the people participating are in the early stages of some sort of sickness - or at a minimum, they haven’t yet…

I Hate Losing

“I hate losing even more than I like winning. And there’s a difference.” Billy Beane Moneyball There IS a difference! I’ve been seeing a naturopath who has slowly been getting me out of bed and able to do a little here and there. The last few days have been very noticeable. It’s exciting. It’s encouraging.…

A Life of Options

I remember times in my life when I looked at the wide open world and thought about the different options I had...career choices, where I'd live, where I'd vacation. Those options are still available but I realized this morning my life has become a series of options - options that sometimes aren't really options. We…

Acceptance Does Not Equal Failure

One of the hardest things for me to overcome isn't the acceptance that I am sick. I wake up every morning knowing I'm sick - the pain reminds me, the fatigue and weakness remind me, the numbness and tingling and nausea remind me. Yes, I accept that I'm sick. I put my feet on the…

Don’t Give Up

I want to inspire people. I want someone to say because of me, they didn't give up. Usually when I write, it's just as much for me as it is for anyone else. Today is no exception. I wouldn't say the last few days have been great, but they've been better than many. So you…